As a creative person pursuing acting, with a mother and family that are dying for me to come home or get a real job, it becomes very hard to handle at times. I would love to come home. I would love to have a solid job with benefits and a retirement plan. I would love to live a much easier lifestyle. I would love to see my family all the time and partake in every family vacation to different destinations.
But I can't. Not yet. I'm not done with NY and I know its not done with me. This is the career I've chosen. It's one where I'm constantly working and in the end it pays off. You get out of it what you put in and frankly, the first year of it you don't have a lot to put in because you're just trying to figure it all out. NY, the industry, all of it. I've invested so much in a year and a half and made huge strides regardless of whether I have or haven't booked jobs yet. I'm not ready to throw in the towel. I'm ready to put all of myself into this.